Does God give us what we desire, or does He decide what we desire? Some of my earliest prayers I remember (I was probably about 6) are ones asking to wake up the next day with my room full of all the toys I wanted. Naturally, I never woke up to a room full of toys. God probably knew I would only ask for more, and there would never be enough. That doesn’t mean I only prayed that prayer once…I learn slowly, but He is patient.
In later life, after understanding Christianity somewhat better, one of the first Bible verses I set out to memorize was Psalm 37:4, which says
“Delight yourself in the LORD,
and he will give you the desires of your heart.”
But I still wondered: are the desires what He gives us, or is the fulfillment of desires what He gives us? I now believe it is both. In the times I genuinely seek Him, I find that He molds my desires, so they become more aligned with His character. I also find that He directs those desires toward what will fulfill them. While that fulfillment is not always immediate, I learn to trust from what He does fulfill that all will be made right in eternity and learn patience and peace.
When we truly delight in Him, we end up finding out that what we desire is righteousness; we also find out that He provides all the righteousness we desire and need. We find those desires fulfilling rather than frustrating, we find that fulfillment durable rather than fleeting, and therefore find ourselves content rather than anxious.
However, we don’t always delight in Him, and we find ourselves conflicted and unfulfilled.
“Commit your way to the LORD;
trust in him, and he will act.
He will bring forth your righteousness as the light,
and your justice as the noonday.” – Psalm 37:5-6
Today, pray we will find our delight in Him.